Try, Try, Again...

"I have missed more than 9000 shots in my career. I have lost almost 300 games. On 26 occasions I have been entrusted to take the game's winning shot...and missed. And I have failed over and over and over again in my life. And that is why...I succeed." Michael Jordan

I am coming up on my final push of school. I have 4 classes left plus my externship. There have been so many days that I have looked at myself in the mirror and wondered why the hell did I do this to my family? We had no right moving out here, with nobody we knew around, and starting a new life. What was I thinking?

Then I remember something my dad told me when I first started. "Dreams wouldn't be Dreams if they were easy." I have thought about that every day. I know in my heart that we were meant to come out here. Minnesota is in the top 6 states that treats autism. Morgan has, by far, received the best medical care of her life here. They are on the brink of figuring out why she decides not to breath at night. And if they can't find the answer, they find someone who will.

That is why we are still here and why I WILL finish school. I currently have a 4.0 GPA. I don't have that because I am super gifted and everything comes to me easily. I have that because I can't fail. I have a husband that gave up everything to be here and to let me do this. I can't come home and tell him I got a B on something. That isn't fair. I have two kids who don't see any of their grandparents and don't ask why. They don't know why Mommy isn't there to tuck them in. They are so used to it by now, they just go with the flow. It isn't fair to them. I have a family back in Ohio and one sister in South Carolina who cried when we left, but have been there every day for us, maybe not physically, but emotionally. So you see...failure is not an option. I have to succeed, for my family, my husband, and my kids. Plus..I get to say that I worked my hinnie off to get this degree..not just for me..but for them. It was a sacrifice that we all made and I am so glad that we did.

So here is to my family, my kids and especially to my husband. For he is there every night to rub my shoulders, to tell me that I am doing ok, and to get me up the next morning and do it all again. I love you all...I love you Todd.

"A dream is in the mind of the believer, and in the hands of the doer. You are not given a dream, without being given the power to make it come true." Anonymous